At the viewing table

I arrived at the auction room early and read the instructions twice, though I had already studied them on the bus. My job was to carry the small objects to the viewing table; I was not expected to discuss their value. That distinction reassured me until I saw how confidently the other assistants answered visitors. I kept my badge inside my coat for a moment. Then I found the supervisor and asked her to show me where I should stand. I wanted the morning to begin before I could think of an excuse to leave.

In your own words, explain the writer's thoughts and feelings before beginning the auction work.